Friday, August 15, 2008

a blessing in disguise,

the perfect words to describe my life, choices, and situation at the moment. i couldn't be any happier than i am right now. a customer came in to work and asked why i had moved back and after i told her the story she just looked at me and said "life has its beauty of working everything out at the right moment and this is only a blessing in disguise." all of a sudden i have realized that i have everything in this world working on my side.

i'm meeting a friend for coffee here in a bit, and then i'm heading to auburn for the weekend to see some of my girls. i am really starting to look forward to what lies ahead this year and with everything thats already happened, i am ready. have a good weekend:)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

sweet home alabama

i'm finally "home" now, and for the first time in a long time i am so happy about my decision to move back. i miss my family terribly, but things here are starting to fold out right in front of me and i must admit that it's so nice. it was a long drive, not to mention akward, but i finally made it. the past 3 weeks sure have twisted my idea about life, karma, and trust around completely. i've learned what a genuine friend really us, i am now a true believe in karma and that what goes around comes around, and that everything in this world happens for some reason. regaurdless why we think its happening, we just need to rest it in the hands of someone with greater power and trust that He can guide is through our moments of weakness and He will clear up all the confusion.

so, now i have a house full of scrambled clothes and all sorts of other things just waiting on my organization skills, which i lack. but i dont feel like messing with that now, i have a life to live and im so excited! school starts up again on monday, so i have one last weekend of sweet summertime to live! i'll try and get some pictures up here soon, but for now, my fate is rested in the hands of a miracle.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

dazed and confused

it seems to me that i just dont understand why it is people choose to do things the way they do? maybe its me, but it seems like there would be an easier way to do things. just my thought of the day.

only 3 more days left before i head back to birmingham. i moved to austin about mid july to live my dream, and my dream fell apart. now its time that i put the pieces back together and get my life back the way i'm happy with. im not sure how to go about that but i guess you win some, you lose some. for the past week i've been watching my 3 cousins. kyler, 9, branson, 6, jade, 1. they are my little angels in desguise but i love them with all my heart. im so sad to leave my family, but i believe that in time they will understand my decisions. they have given me more support than i could ever understand and i am so thankful to have them here. i guess for the time being now im just super confused, but everything will work itself out. i've got some friends coming in from out of town tomorrow to swim, so thats something to look forward to. life is good for the most part; finally.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

it's not all what it's cracked up to be..

"when you're a kid, you see the life you want, and it never crosses
your mind that it's not gonna turn out that way."

throughout my whole life i have picture my future in one specific way; lets just say it never even got close. my father has a job that relocates us about every 3 years. sometimes we get lucky and wind up staying for longer. all my family has known is readjusting to new people, schools, jobs, cities, blah blah. it got pretty old after awhile. but now looking back, i am very thankful that i got that chance to know so many different lifestyles. it's made me a very optomistic person in more ways than even i know, and it's made me see things from more than one perspective.

the whole family started off in texas and of course mine was the first to drift away. the first move was olathe, kansas then shortly followed by ankeny, iowa where my younger brother and i experienced the worst of it all. we stayed there for 3 years and my mom and dad decided it was the best for everyone if they split. so they did, and so did my brother and i. i went with my other back to texas, and my brother and father moved to birmingham alabama. as time passed things in texas werent looking promising with the position we were in, so i moved to birmingham to finish out the rest of highschool. thank god for that decision because i met some of the greatest friends to ever graduate with, i found the job i'd been searching for forever, and i met the boy of my dreams.

as of course when i was younger i wanted a lot of those things as i just mentioned and im so thankful now that those things found their way into my life. im one to believe that everything happens for a reason and its shown through my crazy yet beautiful life. so, after graduating high school my plans had always been to get back to texas, "home", and start living my life. so in mid july, i packed up the remains of my life and started 10 hours west. when i got to texas, lets just say my "big plan" completely unfolded, right in front of me.